Hi for those of you who don't know my story here goes.

Around the beginning of May I found a lump in my right breast and 2 weeks later I went to my primary doctor. My dr thought that it would be nothing but wanted to do an ultrasound anyway, then things snowballed. The ultrasound showed a solid mass measuring 1.8 cm a mammogram was then done. The mammogram confirmed the untrasound and a biopsy was recommended. This all happened so fast. The next day I was in my surgeons office for a needle biopsy which came back abnormal after 2 days of waiting. A lumpectomy was then on the schedule for June 16th, 2009.  I went into surgery hoping everything was going to be ok but I had this gut feeling that it wasn't. When I woke up in post-op my family wasn't there yet the nurse went to get my husband and his sister came back with him. My surgeon came in and said that the frozen segments showed I have lobular and ductal invasive carcinoma. She said the mass was 8cm large and she was not able to remove it all.  When all the reports came in she said it was fast growing. She set me up with an oncologist and by mid-july chemotherapy was under way. I got 3 chemo drugs at once. Adriamycin. Cytoxin, and Taxatrene, (i hope I spelled them right).  13 days after my first treatment I lost all my hair.

I was beginning to think maybe I would get lucky and it wouldn't fall out even though they told me it would.  I know it is a trivial thing to be upset about in the grand scheme of things but I was devastated. My husband and his best friend shaved their heads to make me feel better. The first few days after chemo were terrible i felt like i had been hit by a semi truck. I was so nauseous i threw up I had bowel problems, and my bones ached. I feel the worst for my kids though because they had to see me run to the bathroom all the time. after 3 rounds of chemo my doctor decided I should have a double modified radical mastectomy on Sept. 30, 2009. Surgery initially went alright minus the emotional devastation. Then on Oct 10, 2009 I ended up with a severe MRSA infection and was in the hospital for 14 days. I came home with a wound vac and visiting nurses to change the dressings every other day for two months. I then started chemo treatments again and after four treatments the chemo threw me into menopause and I could not stop bleeding.

On Jan 30, 2010 a D&C was performed to no avail. On Feb 5, 2010 I had a total abdominal hysterectomy and oopherectomy. Once again chemo started back up and my doctor informed me that the previous rounds of chemo probably did no good so now I am on weekly chemo sessions, every Thursday, for 12 more weeks. Once the 12 weeks of chemo is done I will start 32 daily radiation treatments to my neck, chest wall and axillary area. I currently have a 41% chance of making it. I am a registered nurse and it is very difficult for me to be on the receiving end of all of this care that I once provided.

Since treatment began I have been unable to work which has been financially devastating to my family. Our children have had to forsake their activities and go without many of the things they love. Our family and friends are pleading for help, I would not normally ask for help but I have no other choice. Emotionally I am devastated by the fact that I cannot provide for my family and I just want to thank everyone involved, from the bottom of my heart, and for those of you who want to be involved in helping my familiy and I.